I was watching a TED talk on Netflix, The Happy Secret to Better Work, and its super useful, I think. Its some stuff related to what I’ve been trying to do anyway, with just CBT things in general
But it also made me think: Doing any of the stuff, meditating, journalling, writing out things I’m grateful for, none of that would have been effective before meds. I mean, not to say for sure without trying it, but I never could meditate and being grateful or happy or whatever about anything was hard to feel for real- or at least what I’m finding those emotions feel like now that I’m healthy. Everything was covered in a static of fuckedness
I am listening to free college lectures on itunes because apparently that’s a thing? And one of the lectures has a note that says “mic dies halfway through lecture”
I had to read it like 4 times to understand a person named Mic does not die while giving a lecture.
An interesting model of our solar system’s path as it travels through space in the Milky Way.
Certainly a departure from usual models that show the Sun as a static object, which it certainly isn’t
I had no idea this was happening. Where are we going?
To fuck some shit up
lol I never thought of it this way ;x
Orbit orbit orbit baby, everything orbittttts
Why do people keep posting these wonderful gifs of Freema doing non-Doctor Who things BUT NEVER WHAT THE SHOWS ARE.
I think what some people don’t understand about Jack’s responsibility in Hannibal is that it’s not: Jack should know what’s best for will and make will’s life decisions. It’s actually more like: Jack is in charge of a really sensitive department of the FBI and it requires all officers to be able to handle their job in a healthy and psychologically sound way not just for their officer’s benefit but for the safety of everyone. Jack’s job is, in part, to manage the people who work under them and make sure they are all sound for their job. And Will, in begging and flip flopping about quitting, visiting and relating with Abigail and Georgia, he exhibits some really textbook examples of “not dealing.” Not to mention, even in the beginning he was supposed to be a special case where measures are taken to protect his psyche. And Jack does… everything he can to make Will stay.
Honestly, Snow Crash was a really useful book for me to read right now. Because thinking about protecting oneself from neurolinguistic viruses (if you include any outside influence that has a negative effect) is something I’ve only gained recently- Like an ability to verify that information coming in isn’t manipulating or using or hurting me in any way before I let it seep into my mind all the way.
And without this ability- well I mean I was depressed and had no self esteem. I lost track of what was ok and not ok for me to be, and felt like I needed outside validation for my value (Not in a monetary/whatever way but in a quantative value way) to make any sense to me, Now that I’ve broken free of thinking of myself as fundamentally broken it’s easier to protect myself from outside influence.
Huh. Plato’s criticisms of poetry sound like my dad’s philosophy on mental illness.
I think everyone needs more friends they can write romantic dramatic excited letters about what’s going on in their lives
or like this is the first time I’ve gotten to have friends while not in a depressed stupor, let me be excited with all of them over everything, let’s share in the joy.
As a side note, this feeling makes me think: People who are more or less neurotypical but have some brush with something that requires mental resilience must think feeling better is so easy. But I never had that ability to do that until I got on the right meds, and like its not easy or even possible all the time to do cognitive stuff for everyone. I didn’t have a lot of cognitive function to draw on, and couldn’t control my thoughts like I can most of the time now.
So I think I just like overloaded myself with good yes stimulation (Listening to lectures, sketching, watching Swan Lake, writing, reading) till like a tipping point of if I go any further Ill need sensory depo
And like I can feel that tipping point and work with it ok
I was thinking about transhumanism and a criticism I saw once of the idea for being like more for sci fi than for any sort of philosophical/political thought
And like keep in mind I probably have no idea what I’m talking about
But I just see transhumanism and I have been finding different ways lately to fit technology into my strategies around adhd and other limitations and working them into my self cbt things and I dunno the idea of more attention given to developing those sorts of technologies (Helping people improve their every day life through tech that’s not only developed by capitalist goals, not necassarily transhuman tech though) that can bridge an individual’s own limits (meaning the things they find limit them, decided by the individual) with their own personal goals,
Especially since this I think is like the organic way innovation is supposed to happen-a person who has intimate knowledge of an experience thinks of, develops, and attempts to implement something to improve that experience
I dunno, whatever my thought is here, it’s still undeveloped, but here’s part of it
There’s something sadistic about seeing that someone you barely knew in high school got married and their mom has everything set to public and clicking on the album
Is the price of being well adjusted and popular in high school that you are doomed to keep the same social circle for the next decade meaning your life is eternally altered by who you sat next to in home room.
OK I FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT
I have been marveling lately over everything I do and I couldn’t figure out why, like what am I so excited about that I can do x or y or z, and now I get it: I’m excited over everything that having extra spoons means I’m able to do. Like clean or do art or think clearly about something fun and not have it be taxing and horrible and like just doing things. For the first time, you are not in like mental horribleness, everything feels like an amazing interesting new experience. Or something.
ok but what the hell is this bullshit quote when their attraction to each other is explicitly spelled out in other iterations of canon and heavily alluded to in the movie itself, not to mention the movie ended on the most romantic note it could have without having a hollywood kiss on a sunset background
?????? i don’t understand why tumblr’s trying so hard to pretend this movie is in any way progressive beyond ‘woc heroine’. like if you liked and enjoyed it, great, but why insist it’s the golden beacon of media representation and sophisticated writing when it is very clearly neither of those things
As someone whose friendships with guys has generally gone beyond worrying about normal platonic physical displays of friendship being read as romantic, I found the relationship between Mako and Raleigh to just look like they were easily and naturally comfortable with each other. I never really saw them having sexual tension filled moments or anything. There were scenes that would be played as sexual tension, like you say the ending. But its not framed as sexual tension, there’s no tension in their friendly touch. The only time there’s tension its a different kind- when they spar.
Like I usually read sexual tension in most things, but I feel like the actors and director and everything just really did well at never putting sexual tension into the movie.