Smoking pot and embroidering and watching parks & rec and suddenly understanding communism better like
The only skill high paid people really have is the skill of determining how employees should be paid and what their labor is worth. Of course the skill of giving out money is valued highly. And like our society makes knowing how to run a business so complicated that of course there would be people who would specialize in that, so since those are the people determining it they are the most valued. Becoming a boss is really just getting to be the guy who decides what everyone else gets paid.
Being kinda fat is annoying sometimes, not as much as other people get but I mentioned smoking pot to my therapist and she expressed concern about me getting the munchies but my attitude on the subject is more like food is fucking delicious and enjoyable with the munchies and I don’t know about the health effects but seeing as I’m in therapy because of my complete lack of concern over age expectancy I don’t really care enjoying food is awesome and my hips are awesome and I just ordered pancakes and horchata to be delivered to my door
Just left therapy. Had a cool session where we are making a family tree like thing about how my family interacts
Nearly had a panic attack on the elevator because a middle age white dude got on behind me and for some reason that on its own really freaked me out
I don’t get to see my momma today so we went shopping yesterday. I saw this necklace in top shop, where my mom was gonna buy me some necklaces that were on sale, and I showed my mom and said it looked like something a magical girl would wear and it was the silver crystal and I’m sailor moon and I’m not sure if she slipped it into her basket as a token of affection or because she was afraid of shocking me out of a delusion
I think I just figured out my sexuality- I am evil prince sexual, as in sexual for evil princes. Of any gender. But I’m also soft femme cuddling romantic so that’s complicated.
I feel like for some reason i am heading back to “dead on the inside” but hopefully thats just temporary
in case you ever forget how to spell curdled milk’s name i made a handy dandy chart
you can mix and match! (◠ ◡ ◠✿)
its funny because we all know who this is no matter what the combination is
this…….is so helpful when I need some quick combinations
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You should stitch me a ‘useless’ thing as tokens of affection o 3o
I’ll have to make you a different one, I like the texture of this one so I’m gonna keep it around to touch
Then I can mail you pretties!
It occurs to me
I have not eaten today
Ummm yay for whatever it is that is wrong with me because I literally do not know how I should feed myself right now
Do you ever see things other people have made and want to hold it out and scream “This! This is all you need to understand me as a person!”
That’s how I feel about the new hyperbole and a half post.
Oh wait now I get what triggers are
Yeah, see, THIS is a trigger. Something that prompts a horrible flashback that makes someone go into a literal panic attack. It is NOT something that makes you slightly uncomfortable, so can we all just stop tossing that word around like it’s nothing.
THIS^ Although I’m not 100% about the reaction part.
But triggers don’t make you slightly uncomfortable.
There’s actually a lot of ways to be triggered! PTSD and trauma are not the only things that have triggers! For instance I have triggers dealing with past trauma, but I also have triggers that make me “slightly uncomfortable” in the moment which lead to breakdowns or being non functional later. I also have triggers for my skin picking disorder. I have triggers for my anxiety disorder that don’t lead me to having a panic attack but do occasionally make me start talking to myself or scolding myself in public! I have triggers that will make me withdraw for days or will make me hyperventilate, and both of those reactions REALLY FUCKING SUCK. There is NOT one true way to be triggered!
Please do not spread disinformation about triggers. People are triggered in all sorts of ways, don’t try to invalidate them!
Just because someone doesn’t scream and cry for you doesn’t mean you get to invalidate them
I know I’ve been withdrawn and absentish lately but I might feel ok again soon had a good session with my cbt therapist about my skin picking and plan to make a good post about that when I have time
Got my meds tweaked again so hopefully that will help too