Posts tagged: dermatillomania
I just saw a post from someone, and its a personal post so not reblogging, but in it they say something like “I know people say they wish everyone could dress however and not have like a theory or anything behind it and it can just be clothes but I’ve been overweight in tees and jeans for years, so wearing dresses and skirts and being femme now, it will never just be clothes to me”
And I dunno, with gaining weight and especially my derma, I really feel that
Like I was helping my room mate pick out clothes for her interview and I had her try on one of my dresses, and she was amused I hadn’t worn it yet. I had bought it at the beginning of summer, beginning of my “cbt will cure me I will be beautiful soon” and that hasn’t happened yet. I’m really hoping it does soon though. Long sleeves are annoying, I get comments from people, now I’m embarrassed to go into both the 7-11 and the CVS near me because the cashiers have remarked about my skin and I’m just tired
Like the most annoying thing about having something somewhat obscure like dermatillomania is all the “resources” can google just tell you in depth what csp is and say therapy and fidget toys and support groups
And I was trying to google like skin care stuff
Because the major problem I find is anything meant for wounds to prevent infection is meant to just be used on one small area, and there’s just a lot of specialized skin care concerns and I just want resources that are more helpful than every google result being Dermatillomania 101
I am playing dermatillomania skin care chef i have no idea what i’m doing except everything im using you can put on skin so how wrong can it go
So because seamstress and dermatillomania, I have some pin pricks on my fingers that I picked at at some point, not a lot not like I pick other places. But now that I’m wearing fake nails, and one of the places are on the part of my right pointer finger that touches touchpad when I have fake nails, I NOW SUCK AT ELECTRONICS EVERYTHING IS TOUCH PADS UGH FUCK WHY CANT IT TELL MY FINGER IS THERE
I did my nails to help stymie my picking
Sometimes when I’m all full of positivity I wonder if stretchmarks can be tiger stripes, why can’t I be a leopard?
Does anyone know if there’s a link between compulsive skin picking and add/adhd?
I dunno, im starting to wonder if I have add and skin picking is something i frequently hyperfocus on when getting distracted from a task
I’m kinda tired of dermatillomania
Normally in the summer
I’m all “Can’t leave the house, too hot for long sleeves, someone will see my arms.”
And today I actually thought “I have no desire to leave the house. It is too cold to bare my arm, no one will see it.”
This is good
This is happy.
I still have one icky derma arm
But look at my kickass tattoo!
Emailing tattoo artist
And wondering if/how I should bring up my dermatillomania
And I should because otherwise he will say something about it and I should get it over with in email
Because I won’t be able to verbally
And that’s so cool!
But I can’t
I’m going to sit here in my corner and be ashamed
with my summer sweaters
and make up that never matches right or covers enough
I want my skin back.
Submitted by poisonsoup
Texas was miserable.
- It feels good
- It gives me control
- I destroy my skin
- I am left with horrible scars
- My self-esteem plummets
- I am constantly spending money on skin products and makeup
- I stop myself from enjoying things because of my condition
- I am consistently self-conscious and hard on myself for it
- It stops me from pursuing relationships with people
- My family suffers when they see my face
- It’s always on my mind
- I don’t actually have the control I think I do when I do it because I am a slave to the behavior
- One minute of feeling good leaves a lifetime of scars that make me feel not so good
- I get into fights with people who don’t understand it and it’s pointless trying to explain it to them
- It stops me from actually leaving my house
The list goes on, these are just what I could think of right now. I encourage you to make your own Pros and Cons list and put it up next to your mirror so when you get the urge to pick take a look at it and remind yourself why it just isn’t worth it.
This so bad right now.